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blank=my head. i seriously have nothin to say.my mind is going in a million different directions and i comprehend one molecule of thought long enough too actually understand or appreciate whats going on. i got the best and worst news of my life today, my girlfriends being a psycho for no reason, i wasnt allowed in my house lastnight, the list goes on... but seriously my mind drawing a blank. i dont know what to think or where to start. i need a new saviour, all the angels i know put concrete in my veins, i have basically seized all my emotions. yeah i love you but you questioned it today, us today, and i dont know . it felt like at that second that i was putting myself into that position again. thats not a good spot to be. then the whole late thing, fuck, you said i was joking about it. all of it, that i didnt care and i have nothing on the line. i have you, and you told me to walk away today, that your specifically trying to piss me off enough to walk away.well as long i have you i have something to lose, and when the only that i am actually losing is lost then what? and yeah i am losing you, remember it doesnt feel the same. as for that question,^ then what? well after i lose you like i seem to do with all people. ill go postal for a day or too then binge eat and alcoholism is a must.but at the end of it all ill tear my body down. i wont eat but ill do stupid amounts of exercise and exhaust my self so i can barely function. then ill rebuild myself, andmonths after all this youll stumble across me with another one similiar to you and the others and ill smile cuz when im at my lowest form at that first building block ill adapt and change, see one wanted this and another that, soon ill be a perfect guy, with aspects from numerous girls. then youll notice that just like us me adn her arent happy, i dotn have her aspect yet. see i cant comprehend just one thought. and so what iff yor late or if this has never happened to you befor, its life new things happen. you learn thats what the point is. you just learned what FACICOUS (sarcastic) means. so your life is still being lived. but i think ive ranted enough. i jsut want you to stop this. you freak out over nothing. all the time its not needed. jsut talk to me and trust me. thats all that needs to be done. i love you.