me

when you walk through the park.
when you see that one guy.
he sits alone, yeah thats me.

blank

blank=my head. i seriously have nothin to say.my mind is going in a million different directions and i comprehend one molecule of thought long enough too actually understand or appreciate whats going on. i got the best and worst news of my life today, my girlfriends being a psycho for no reason, i wasnt allowed in my house lastnight, the list goes on... but seriously my mind drawing a blank. i dont know what to think or where to start. i need a new saviour, all the angels i know put concrete in my veins, i have basically seized all my emotions. yeah i love you but you questioned it today, us today, and i dont know . it felt like at that second that i was putting myself into that position again. thats not a good spot to be. then the whole late thing, fuck, you said i was joking about it. all of it, that i didnt care and i have nothing on the line. i have you, and you told me to walk away today, that your specifically trying to piss me off enough to walk away.well as long i have you i have something to lose, and when the only that i am actually losing is lost then what? and yeah i am losing you, remember it doesnt feel the same. as for that question,^ then what? well after i lose you like i seem to do with all people. ill go postal for a day or too then binge eat and alcoholism is a must.but at the end of it all ill tear my body down. i wont eat but ill do stupid amounts of exercise and exhaust my self so i can barely function. then ill rebuild myself, andmonths after all this youll stumble across me with another one similiar to you and the others and ill smile cuz when im at my lowest form at that first building block ill adapt and change, see one wanted this and another that, soon ill be a perfect guy, with aspects from numerous girls. then youll notice that just like us me adn her arent happy, i dotn have her aspect yet. see i cant comprehend just one thought. and so what iff yor late or if this has never happened to you befor, its life new things happen. you learn thats what the point is. you just learned what FACICOUS (sarcastic) means. so your life is still being lived. but i think ive ranted enough. i jsut want you to stop this. you freak out over nothing. all the time its not needed. jsut talk to me and trust me. thats all that needs to be done. i love you.

the movement.

im making a community movement for everyone. we only have one planet and were all in this together. i want emails of your short (10 - 20 seconds) video. anything from you writing be unique on your hand to your 1 sentence explanation of what it means to be human. i want this to inspire and unite. so if your serious comment and youll get my email.

N.D.J

i love, adore, appreciate, and miss you

Arriving at one point is the the starting point to another

So I came to a conclusion. When a person is confronted with what they want they abuse it. They expect it too always be there they promise it things and when its there nothing happens no changes and promises are forgotten. Well I confronted you on hopes that what you said would become reality and so far youve degressed in progress, I was actually happier before than I am now. So I dont know what to tell you, youve changed your mind and I can see that so I guess I might as well change mine too. Us again isnt working you said it yourself. If you really want this or want me youd be making an effort, but you dont seem to grasp that you just think I'm going to wait around on you like I have done before well I'm not going too. I'm not your puppet anymore I'm not going to let you boss me around when you dont listen to my requests. I wont sit at home while your out with your friends. I'm sick of a one way effort, of you doing nothing and getting everything. So this is it, this is the only time I'm telling you and if it doesnt change immediately then I'm breaking my promise too you. You just arrived at another starting point, will you finish what you started? Or will you just keep running the track your already on? Good luck.

special someone

i cant believe how happy she makes me. its fucking incredible how one person can give you what you need and you can do the same for them. its been a really long time since ive been this happy, like i cant seem to stop fuckin smiling. oh my fucking god i love that girl with everything i have. entirely. fuck i just dont know what to do with myself im so jittery and shit. fuck i love life right now.