commitment

Yesterday, it was a rough day... Natasha was sick and i decided to tend too her. from doing her laundry to making her a steak sandwhich. Why? because im committed. Yes its true im crazy about Josalyne but Natasha, well Natasha makes me feel whole. Everything she does, its love... from her compulsive having to know what im doing at all times (which is really cute) to how we both have blue eyes, how our music interests clash... and so does our fashion. She just seems to be my life partner, along with Megan Fox and Jessica Alba. =). I just love her and cant stand it when we fight which pretty much all we do, I often have mixed feelings about it, but when i go to sleep shes the last person I think about and when I wake up shes the first person I think about. I love her . When I first saw her standing there with blue eyes and long brown hair. I tried to picture her underwear, I hoped she'd be the one, and now i know she is.


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employment # 2

so today i got my unemployment insurance letter. im approved so i guess i get too sit around and get paid... AWESOME!!! thats all i really have too share right now. oh yea, its totally awesome.

love

love. a four letter word. tattooed on my body. its a park. it fucks with peoples heads.

tonight. apparently my current/ex girlfriend believes shes sharing me. yes im a liar a degenerate and an asshole but im not a player. apperently i asked out my ex three times today. now im no expert but if she said no the first time, which clearly she must of why would i do it again. and when she said no the second time which clearly happened why would i try again. i wouldnt. i wouldnt do it once. shes my ex so why should we try again months later. now im pissy so goodnight world.

employment #1

I have hand delivered seventy two resumes to companies up to two hours away. seventy two. I have not recieved a single phone call, email, anything in regards to any position I have applied for. I am starting to get really pissed off about this. Even Walmart didn't call me back. Seriously, I am not retarded I'm a high school graduate and i have a drivers license.WHAT THE FUCK!!! Am I just setting my sights too high, maybe I'm supposed to prostitute or something, maybe sell pot. At any rate I need a job, i need money.

friendship

So, tonight my girlfriend and I had another fight, now usually I really wouldnt care... but tonight I wanted to talk to someone. I always talk to one person. Josalyne. She has recently moved to England, and I no longer have someone to joke around with or to just talk to about anything. That depressed me quite a bit. Long story short I told my girlfriend that I love Jos more than her, more than i could ever feel for her. It's kind of fucked up because we're best friends. shes a thousand miles away and I have no way to tell her how I feel.